Well.. feel like saying smth... I cant fall asleep, feel like telling someone, dunno who, blogging came to me... Thinking and thinking what i'm going to write, so much things i wanna cry out.. but couldnt rmb what... In the end, i just wanna shout out..........

MY LIFE IS SO STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dunno why! I just felt that life is so meaningless now, but why? I got a steady lot of friends what, i have a lovely family well, sometimes its just so irriating that i could just leave the house, just like now, writing away and mum is nagging behind. Cant you understand?! How irriating is it?

Maybe its just i dun have her, Mal mal will surely scold me wan,"dun be lame larh, dun be a idiot cannot or not..."

Indeed, he has no good impression of her since that time, none of my bestie that time encouraged me to go on, but maybe i inherited my dad's stubborness, i kept to my belief. I continued, i also didnt wanna give it up, but it all seems so dumb.....

Cos I know so much, I know for sure she wont like me, even for a bit! I should be grateful that she kept me as a friend. I also didnt wanna ask much, moreover, i've been thinking, why am i continuing this torture where i can jolly well end it? Stupid!

The more she writes about him does not make me jealous, just so painful, so depressing and confusing.
Can I dun wanna live this life anymore!?!?

Now then i know why i like this song so much, it totally just suits me....

Just So You Know
I shouldnt love you but I want to
I just cant turn away
I shouldnt see you but I cant move
I cant look away

I shouldnt love you but I want to
I just cant turn away
I shouldnt see you but I cant move
I cant look away
And I dont know how to be fine when Im not
Cause I dont know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feelings taking control of me
And I cant help it
I wont sit around, I cant let him win now
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go of you
But I dont want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

Its getting hard to be around you
Theres so much I cant say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I dont know how to be fine when Im not
Cause I dont know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]
This emptiness is killing me
And Im wondering why Ive waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
Im waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]

Hais... I still have so much to say but i know i'll be boring to you guys..
To Be Contiuned...


To Love or To Hate?

Confused!