Yup, as the title goes, we when to ikea!!! Mainly to have MEATBALLS! Johnne ate 15, Yi Wen ate 10, I ate 2 chicken wings! hahas, it is all very delicious!
While eating and after eating, we spent almost 1 hour on talking?? hahas.. Only me and johnne talked la.. Yi wen only listen lo.. HAHA
(if you two sees this, rmb,"successful arh... then i .........")
I'll keep to my promise! hahas..

After gossiping and updating each other, we went to window shopping!
Den when we walking around, something caught my eyes!!!
Look at it! Vodkas! Many many vodkas! hahas! Who wants Vodka? Anyone?? hahas!
How i wished i got all of em up in my fridge! *BLURP*
One of my favorite! Vanilla! Best with Sprite or coke! i luv it!
Apple flavor one... hahas.. i wanna taste it! =D
The fun pack! hahas.. Many different flavor... Can we have sample? =P





Through today's little outing, i had some self-realisation...

Emptiness, emptiness in my life.
I feel that i have wasted my life up till now... Basically i feel that i'm useless...
I was thinking to myself on the train, it seems that my life is quite a nice and pleasant one...


But something is lacking, something so impt lacking that resulted in me sitting in this train, thinking about things that are so random.

I think really hard, I thought of Jin Man, needing to go ard and collect her t shirts, which makes me wanna help, but too bad she got accompany alr..

Thats when I suddenly realise what am i lacking, I am lacking commitments!!

Actually, to live my life is simple, sch home sch home or go out once in awhile.

Totally no commitments, why is commitments so impt?? It makes us stressed and tired! It doesn't always gives you money.. Even if it does, its not much also ma... Sometimes might even be cheated as cheap labor! Some ppl might said tt...


But sometimes it cant be measured by monetary values,
Although it may be stress, tired... and has almost no values in it, there is something that you gained from it that cant be measured by money! Its the sense of satisfactory!! The feeling that made yourself feel that you are useful and lived your life to the fullest!

This cant be bought!

Commitments are one of those factors that made us lived our life happily!

Looking at some live examples,

Mei Qi and Vivian, perhaps they seems to be slogging for their race thingy, they sometimes even have to sacrifice their sleep to finish their proposal! As far as i noe, they dun get money for organising, maybe just points, but what really motivates them is actually the sense of satisfactory they gained when things are going in a successful manner and ppl starts to join!
i could see the big wide grin from their face, its different from tio-ing 4D, in fact its more happier den that..!



Next, Jin Man, she got SA, SUI, SINGTEL, PARENTS' work and SCHOOL to cope with!

Sometimes, I wished that i could force her to drop just something, in order to let her catch her breath and break away from so much stress...

But i realised that although she is stressed, she is happy! Cos i think that she had lived her life till its fullest, making everyday occupied! Making everyday happenning!
Even if i forced her to take off all her duties, she would still have her commitments! Commitments to blog!
Therefore, the least i can do for her was to relieve some of her stress and burden by either pampering or helping her out.. I admit i sometimes screwed up and made it worst... >.<
Sorry girl! Blehs!


you see... Everyone has their commitments!
even bangala have their commitment to their family, earning better money to provide their loved ones with better life!

Let alone that,

Even my dear dog has her commitments to this family as in to protect this family and bring joy and laughter to them!



Actually, after thinking so much, i still think that i have neither commitments, thus i felt that i am really useless!

Sometimes, i try to do what i am most confident in, commiting to someone i love...
But sometimes the commitment gave me pains, thus, sometimes i feel that i have wasted life and discouraged!


Lastly, i felt that though i had lived and grown for 17 years, i realised that i really had nth that i could be proud of, nth that i actually finished it, i always start things and give up half way..!

Anyway, i cooked today's dinner for mum! Its Jing Kang's yummy VEGETARIAN(I WONT READ IT WRONGLY AGAIN K! Blehs!!) fried rice!

The end product! Its black cos mum likes it with soy sauce! she gave me a 85/100!
From a expert like her, i'm more den happy already..
Hehe! i caught someone sitting attentively at the kitchen door, sniffing what am i doing...! Caught ya Vodka!
Dun act shy la! hahas.. i come den you turn away!
She eventually shoot one big plate of my fried rice! =P

I'm gonna live my life to the fullest!

I think i have done smth wrong, but i am not sure about it, but but all i noe is that i'm certainly in wrong, but i am not pissed with you nor anyone, i am just angry with myself!

hais! I think i am always a failure in expressing!
I wanted to share your stress and burden, yet i always failed...
I wanted to be understanding yet i'm more sensitive and paranoid den the understanding self i want to be!
I wanted to cheer you up, but, i dun noe la..
But i wouldn't whine like a loser! I just want to better!

But if i am wrong, i just want to be better each time! =\

Sorry! Will i be forgiven? hahas!




This is a post which is about what i have been doing for the past one week.. some had their picture but some dun.. so here i go...
Monday, helping parents out... actually its Monday to Friday, 8 to 2 plus! Its might seems short, but the work needed to be done is hellish! Here are some of the pics of my work!

Firstly~ Introducing the different sector of our working space!

Sugar Cane-ing sector, man in charge, my dad and me! hahas.. Its very tense there ok... dangerous yet you have to be fast, well.. needless to say.. i qualified!! wahahhas!

Next Fruit Juicing sector, person in charge! mummy, Ah Kiao aunty and of cos! me!
This is where we store the fruit we are going to juice! hahas.. There is a lot more of cos, this is just a small section of it...! =D
Our sales area, the fridge is a vital thing ok.. hahas.. I'm always at the counter, cos i am the faster person around! hahas! Pretty good huh me? =P
Thats my crew! Dad, mummy, and ah kian aunty at the back washing sugar cane!

Thats the amount of pineapple we need to cut for later on.. Guess wad.. Thats only a lil bit of it! One day we cut almost 300 plus pieces of it and guess again! I need to package it all with plastic bags! Thats tough work ok! =)
Nah, here is the processed pineapple, whew.. now is my turn to package it! =P
This is also the cutted watermelon! hahas.. this is opnly one of the 5 BIGGER planes of it! hahas! and i also need to package it.. myself!!!!! omg! hahas..
Thats the almost full fridge, cos i din have time to shoot it when its at its full, well.. there are a lot more at the other storage fridge for the replenishment.

Another shoot of it! hahas.. We got lots of fruits! Though we dun have wide variety, we got the quality plus quantity! =D
Thats why we won our opponents!

Eh, i forgot the show, the amount of sugar canes Aunty Kiao have to wash everyday! Others might not know but its really tough plus the quantity is scary cos there are 2 more stack of it outside! wow.. thats when i admired her.. hahas!
Crew at work.. except for me, cos i'm faster! wahahahas!
The washed suga canes normally we have the amount of sugar canes to refill this bg basket about 6 times! thats hell lot ok! =X
far view of it.. =)
Last but not least.. sleeping is also part of my work.. hahas.. thats Vodka fighting with me for space on the bed! Arggggh!!