SO SIAN!!!! Got holiday like no holiday like dat!!!!!!!!
First week of holiday, no one is free!!!!!!!! Second week of holiday... have to HELP OUT AT Papa's store!!!! Help me man!! =((

Damn depressing larh... I hate this kind of stupid duty... i dun wanna complain about it because its only correct that i should help out my parents but it truely sucks lorh... but what to do? What earned is all spent on us, its our duty to help them whenever we can, thats undeniable but damn stupid sian larh!! Hope smth could work out...

I feel like I'm fancy someone already, but will i do the wrong things again? I dun wan mistake llike i did already, i hate the feeling of loving someone but not getting loved back! But she seems so distant to me, shouldn't reach for the stars eh?

Feeling like msg someone, didnt wanna make myself look despo... Boredom is all i am now, no life, stay home do nth, waiting someone to talk to, no talking to guys larh, they are boring on chatting! hahaha! Dun feel like playing games lehs... so boring!

Could someone occupy space in my life now? Desperate liao larh! Anything will do!

Trying to love someone...
Who to love?
Should I climb up from my fall again?
Or should I just lie there and wait for someone to pick me up?
Sick, tired and so pain...
Letting go is such a painful thing...

Emo Kang Kang!




Here starts Rp two weeks holiday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So excited sia, thou its not my first time holiday, but it never fails to bore me with holidays!
SO much things i wanna to sia! Play all i can! but not gamming please~! Thats totally no life! xD

Sq say wanna go Sentosa lehs... i agree! I wan to go too! Hoping that there is competition around den...

Last night was a tiring night lo... Me kuong sq talked from 9pm + to 2am+ on the playground lo... talking about girls, talk about what type of girls we like, what type of girls we suit. Haha, had a hearty chat. then took taxi home with kuong cos he no bus to go home ler. As i'm writing, he is still bloody sleeping... He is really a damn pig sia...

Mind long decided......... I WANT TO CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN!!!!! so that the idiot couple wont say..... eeekkkk so girlie! hahhahah! wait till i have time bahs!

Denise arh Denise! So think too much wad i said larh~! Not say you find me irritating, i refering myself to "her". I how can dare to say you! Later i die already also dunno how arh...! I know all the secret liao auntie! I know who went to find you when he has no keys to go home, i know who help you fix the POKEMON and who you owns him chocolate~! Many things must have happenend between you two arh~! How much more i dunno arh~? Opps~ I die liao larh...
Haha! Boo~! Auntie~! Dun shy shy larh!~! Haha... Catch me if you can! wahahahah! =p


Trying to get on to the happy track again!
With bags and bags of shattered pieces of my heart,
Hoping getting back to the track heals it,
Cant you understand?
You're happy, Me is happy but bags of shattered pieces of my heart just keep pulling my smile down...

Not blaming you, letting go of you...




Vesak day Vesak day! Went to temple to bai bai… Then brought some takeaways to KranjiPark to have dinner. Wah… Its filled with Bangladesh sia, our family was of cause freak out. We went to another car park to have our dinner; it was unique in a way, well a bit too unique cause there were quite a few couple in their cars, apparently making out. Awww… I didn’t get to see okays? Wish to be fulfilled at 18th birthday, get car license! Hahaha!

Last night talked to Auntie Denise, I keep thinking of the things she said, not all but this,” I feel irritated when I don’t like that guy and he keeps pestering me.” Hey, doesn’t it sounds like me, time to grow up Mr Ko! I should really try very hard to forget it already. I am already doing it since long time. Anyway! Auntie say she is not being wooed or what, so guys! Grab your chance! Haha! Denise, thank me kays!

Anyway, stupid turtle went to Hong Kong already, so sad! No one to talk to me while I’m in school already, enjoy scolding her and getting scold by her. Every single time I talked about “her” stupid turtle sure scold me one. Nevertheless, she is the best cousin to me larh! Even though she is stupid, bimbo, fussy, noisy, like pretty like hell, she is still my dearest idiotic cousin! Stay pretty girl! Don’t let your boyfriend become gay arh! Hahaha!
Just hope that you better buy something for me when you come back hor!

Also, last night I dreamt something horrible sia! I dreamt of her in other guy’s hand, but don’t know why lehs, I don’t feel sad when I woke up, I just look at the roof, thinking for so long, let it go bah, I keep thinking to myself. No point forcing love, and since I can’t have her give me a answer or I am incapable to let her like me, whats the point, after all, she found her happiness, it may seems old but, I’m happy for her. She is so contented now, what for I spoil her blissfulness? Auntie said a very enlightening and lasting thing to me, thank ya! Haha… if can, treat you to a dinner lorh, don’t worry about it, I’ll ask your baby and Kuong Kuong along one!

I don’t know why, I don’t feel like going into relationship lehs, maybe its due to fear of failure and being out of love for too long already. But don’t think too much, its not that I don’t feel like it, its people feel like it or not. Anyway, the love machine within me a bit rusty already, just like someone said, wait lorh, wait for my Miss Right lorh.

Emo, is the only thing a heart-broken person can do.
Who can help him to pick up the broken pieces?

Waiting…




Today just ended Computering and Mathematical de module, it is such a pain in the ass sia... but nevertheless, me! the genius, can solve it~! wahahaha! everyone got their UT de score back ler, all very sad... me nth to sad about... cos i never come for the test... opps!

Last night, i did a very emo thing, i wrote a real long msg to her, hoping she will make her stand clear to me. I was prepared for the worst, either get a scolding or even not getting a reply, cos a lot of things between us are already predicted, its just that i'm stupid enough to hope fer the one in a billion's chance.

Turtie is right bah, which woman dun like to be like by many guys, they sometimes just merely forgotten about their feelings. Well, at least i improved a bit okays? I just got a lil lil upset that she din reply bah, but i talked to her like nth happened this morning, and she too, didnt care much about it. =)

But I'm tired, tired of wooing someone that is beyond reach. Tired of loving someone but not getting loved back. Despaired with the word LOVE, let alone real love.

Anyway, i just gotten a bit pissed off by the nick my class gave me, but, aiya... forget it man, i've been through things and humiliation much more worst than this already... =)

Been telling others to chill and cheer up, but really cant help myself, wads the point sia...
Can you believe that i'm driven to this point of desperation that I wished that you could end my misery by making yourself clear and let my heart die?!

I know you saw that msg, you just didnt wan to reply, thats all...

A hole in my heart, you made, bleeding like hell, u dun noe it...
But hole in my mind, making me dumb, that i'll still say i love you...




Tired day man! Staying overnight in Yu Min's house is always a torture! cos theres no air-con! so hot! so sticky! Ya... i SLEPT with them, both of them, Kuong Hing and Yu Min, dun noe why they have to cover their ears lehs, my SINGING was good mah! I missed you lorh! I kept calling... wo yao......... the whole time, dun believe ask kuong hing lorh~! ah hahaha

Well, as a punishment, they din have a peaceful sleep untill 4 plus lorh! Listening to me singing! Arent they fortunate!? I couldnt fall asleep, hot and sticky man, went to the window for a breeze or so, thinking of you, i was never tired of it, i was worried that you din reply, i jolly well stood there fer quite a time there and i mean it when i say you always catch my weakness. ''m so afraid to lose you once again, then i turned... Damn! Kuong hing snatched my place lorh, luckily he din wanna die too soon, he slept nearer to yumin, the problem is, when i fell asleep finally, he keep elbowing me lorh..zzz.. torture!

We woke up at 9 plus, TIRED! Msg-ed her, with one eye closed... Sometimes, cant help but ponder what you are thinking lehs... How i wished i could understand you just a lil' lil' bit more lorh! Went fer breadfast den went fer soccer, damn hot man! played volleyball, missing it eh?

Too tired, reached at about 4 plus then i refreshed myself and went to sleep! Hais, apparently i slept till now and just had my dinner! Fatty lorh! cannot cannot! must prove to si Huiting that i can have ^%*&^#%*$^! but nvm, she also fat mah! wahahahah!
=p


I miss you i miss you I miss you i miss you I miss you i miss you!

Time has gone so fast, din wait fer me while I'm waiting fer you...
Cruel reality?