Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Just woke up, feeling much better, but the liquid keep flowing down... Just eaten only, although its porridge, i dun have the appetite so ate one small bowl only...
had smth on mind, its being a long time i hugged someone and relax really relax-ly... I miss it... I really do... =/

Sometimes i wonder if i am really too much, but if i am too much, do you care?
Will you even bother talking to me about it? or treat it as another junk sms, i really do care.. I really wanna noe... =/

Oook..
Time for Sunday's outing,

Went out with dearest cousins, Eugenia, wen wen and qing nan... And Eugenia's friend Yit Kit if i didnt spell it wrongly...

Went for the Jumper in Cineplex...
Eugenia that turtle got a craving for sticks.. ya noe... sticks~
Finish Jumper and we waited for Wen wen to be there and Qing Nan to go...
Then wosh! Eugenia basically ran to the nearer 7 Eleven, i gotmyself a Hooch and she got a Mablorlo menthol, den sat outside puffing lo... with stupid wen wen.. hahas.. Yup, i admit... i did try... That day i finished 2 sticks, but seriously, i had totally no craving for it... So no worries... No smoker here...

Went to have dinner is Pastamania... walked past Heeren, and well, saw Jinman, she was busy i guess.. so we just waved and walked past.. dunno is i too long never see her but i was thinking, wow... You're prettier!
alright... den we had Pastamania and Eugenia had the urge to play arcade... So after one more stick... we went up... Had a few games before Qing Nan meet us again for drinking and chilling...

actually going Bartop or wad la... But i needa go early... so we went over, to his house... well.. Once we got in, i a bit regret going to his house, its just that i dun feel right with a guy who is filled man's pride... Yup, but we drank a lot... especially me, i drank the blackberry something something like its coke like that... Cos its nice, tried other stuff too... Kepp drinking and gambling lo... =)

After like 1, i really needa go off already so we car pool a a cab.. Yup, everyone is tipsy ba.. hahas... i wasn't surprisingly...

So went home and slept at about 3 plus den when for work for mum... Zzzz.. so tough... =/

Alright, sorry for picture-less.. They dun take photos and i am not keen on forcing.. =P

That night I realised something from Eugenia, she asked me...
Do you think you are really loving that person?
After thinking deeply.. yes i am...
Do you think you will still love that person if this continues forever...?
I told her... Although its sian and depressing, but ya... i will...
She said, den dun give up, hold on to it... cos finding someone that actually can bring such affection to you is not easy, try holding on...

I dun noe this is an good advice or not.. I'm really thinking...
I dun wan coldness anymore... but i just jolly well keep invoking it... hais...
Can you understand? i dun want anything but i just want us back to what we are...
*I dun wanna be like this, i just wanna let you noe, everything that i'm holding is everything that i cant give up on.*
I'm sorry... really... can we just stop all this?!
rahhs!!!
Talk to me can!?

Begged for Freedom at 2/19/2008 09:24:00 PM