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Thursday, February 14, 2008

Ytd is Ren Ri... It is a day where the chinese believed that human were evolved on this very day from primate.

So i rushed back home from my mahjong session with Jia Xian, Cheng Zhia and Jimmy, it is nice to see them after such a long period of time...

I lost heavily at the one round... Just one player before the whole round ends... I lost my base...

So we have to settle our winnings and loss, I lost everything of cos.. So as we die die need to finish one round... We distribute the chips again.. and dun know what got into me..

I won 8 games straight... making us unable to continue to the next round... I practically won back everything plus 40 CENTS! wahahas! Never lose can already.. Win how much is just a surplus. =D

So we have end the day with just one round as we are running out of time.. Went to eat in the long time never went Toh Guan Kopitiam...

So i reached home 9 plus... Dun noe why but i got quite a bad mood these few days...

I met Dad downstairs, and we talked, we were fine at first, when he talked about working for him.. I was totally turned off... I dun noe why but i was totally put into a bad mood...

hais.. I felt guilty, but i dun noe what to say... I just kept quiet...

When er jie came back, things got just a lil better...

Pictures for the cake cutting;

She is an old dog already.. look like it right? =D
but i still love her... =X

Our cake, jie said that tmr is Valentine's too, so she bought a love shape one... hmmm.. pricky...

Cake cutting...

Ma always do that... dog dog always gained from it...

Pretty eh? How I wish i could give that to you...

So the next day comes... I slept at about 5... I woke up early cos sis called from her office, asking me to go help out mummy.. I was damn pissed la, i dun let ppl complain behind den let that behind to come and "deal" with me... I DUN LIKE LA!

I was damn pissed when i got there la!
no choice, i still had to work...
but dun noe what the hell is wrong with me... I did something that even i think it is so dreadful that it sure hurted mummy... i am so sorry, yet i found no mood to say sorry... I just kept quiet...

Home these few days will be a torture... I WANT A BREAK FROM EVERYTHING!
I cant even find my appetite anymore!
I cant even find any mood to do anything!
I cant even the motivation in me anymore!

i dun wan! I hate it!
I want myself back!
all i can do is to rant uselessly!
what can i do!!!
What is happenning me!?
I want to noe what the hell is wrong with me...

stupid!

*Faking every smile and laughter is all i can do*
~Can anyone understand?~

Begged for Freedom at 2/14/2008 10:43:00 PM