You wouldn't want it, would you?

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Please dun carry on reading unless you are concerned.. It will be damn emo!

I dun noe how express my feelings anymore...

All I can say now is that I'm
Closed off from love, I din want the pain, once or twice was enuff, I tot everything has come to a good end.. Cos i met you... And for the very first time with you, i really found something true.
When i'm with you, everyone's around me thinks i'm crazy, maybe... maybe..
But i dun care they say, I'm in love with you, I tried very hard not to hear, cos they are trying with good intentions to pull me away, filling me with doubt of my decision, yet i noe what their goal is, which is to keep me from falling...
I understand, i even noe it deep inside... but i choose the hard way, making it a hard time for you and me... I choose to hold on... I choose ignorance... I choose to believe in memories we had...
I'm such a dumbass..

I choose to not heed advice from others...
but, I din regret my decision...

Sometimes i wonder if she knows that she's all i think about at night...
Sometimes i wonder, how could someone so perfect fall for me... I'm thankful for that lil feeling for me...
Sometimes i wonder, when can i hold her tight and give her all the love...
Cos she's the reason for the teardrops on my lappy...
the only one that keeps me wishing on a wishing star..
the only one who's got enough of me to break my heart...
she's the picture in my dream i keep dreaming thru the night, dun noe why i do...

No matter wad... You're still a part of everything i do... You are forever on my heart like a tattoo... You will always be in my heart, it is not that i wont, but i cant erase it, i can only love you more...
I will never regret you...

How i wish you noe that every night i had to cry myself to sleep after tt msg,
Thinking," why does this always have to happen to me? Why does every moment have to be so hard..."
Do you know tt i had been dreaming non-stop after tt msg about our memories, making me unable shake you off?

But i dun blame you, cos you really brought a lot of joy and blissfulness.
Without you, my life wont be that perfect already, i guess nth is perfect forever, i have to see you leave me...

Remember my last words to you, it has no expiry date... Sometimes, how i wish i could have your steadiness to put everything to an end...

Let time prove everything.. Heal everything... Cos heart never lies...
All i can feel is you cutting me open again, and i'm bleeding.. i keep bleeding non-stop, yet i cant do nth...

How i wish i could have one more chance to make things right...

Some taken from songs, some from my heart.. but it roughly explains my feelings for the trip till now...
Sorry readers... sorry for the emoness.. sorry!

Begged for Freedom at 2/09/2008 10:34:00 PM